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Thursday, September 17, 2015

The phrase "from a different world" has never been so salient to me before. It's like, you think you're getting near, but when you actually look at where you are, you're in fact further away from where you started. That's because expectations and realities differ. And it matters.

You wonder why you feel a certain way, wonder why you do certsin stuff, wonder why you think ceetain thoughts when your brain has already explicitly told you time and time again, that you're not supposed to. You know you're not supposed to. You know. But you just chose to otherwise in hopes that you can see miracles happen. When it doesn't, you'll feel like you've been sucker-punched until you feel the void. Right there; right in the middle.

Then you think to yourself, when you're rarely rational, that hey, this should stop. This jumping into fire pits should stop. But you don't.

12:00 AM

this scorpio has very split personality if anyone has realised. She likes super cute stuff e.g. hello kitty, pooh and a very good example, this blog skin. On the other hand, she hates to dress cutely. she uses vulgarities like occasionally but never uses it when parents are home ; loves dressing up when the occasion comes but hates the heels/dresses/skirts; loves making friends but hates socialising; plays the piano but prefers soft rock music in her mp3; loves the customer service envt but doesn't want it as her career; materialistic to a certain extent but hates the cliched designer brands; loves hanging out with friends but sometimes prefers and enjoys the solitude when alone; not really interested in finding a boyfriend but hoping to find a suitable and dependable husband; hates the cliched "wooing" but loves the sweetness in idol dramas; can get emotional at times but doesn't like too much attention and concern; can be superly active but is known to be the rain on people's parade; and the list could go on. if she doesn't talk to you, pls don't think she's unfriendly; she just doesn't want put on a pretence of knowing you well. All in all, hopefully you wouldn't hate her if you know her well enough. and if you hate her, hopefully its because you don't know her well enough.