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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

yay! just found another loyal supporter to my blog. hahaahaahz.. didn't know there's more than 1 person still reading it.

work has been a bitch lately. no, correction. my supervisor pisses me off every single fucking day. Its impossible not to get pissed after talking to her for a few sentences. seriously, she's really really really really testing my patience. Everyday, i have the freaking urge to just tender and see how they die........ but by doing that, i won't hit her. I would hit the other people my rank. so.. sigh... is i t right for you to arrange you wallpaper and settings when everyone is so freaking busy? how can you be so free to keep walking around, chatting, eating, almost hourly? why is your email inbox sooo empty when mine constantly has 100+ unread mails?? and the list could go on and on....

sisters have been meeting up regularly which i like!! felt that we have distanced sooo much... i'm closer to those whom i'm not close in sec school and those that i was close to... have distanced so much that seriously, its awkward when we are alone. how bad is that... sigh... everyone has their own problems, everyone has their own closer friends. we are just holding to the relationship. which i really appreciate, they can still be in my life... but we just have to make the effort to meet often. love those trips and looking forward to LOTS MORE.

cutting off friends from the 2nd degree circle... i dun think i have to feel pai seh... i'm only holding on to those who hold onto me. like wad twitter always tweet, "why let them be your priority when you are only their option?" how true... i'm differentiating, with the help of time, who should be my priority and who remains as my option.

starting school in July.. so excited!! can use new bag, can start studying!! i hope to do well in this aspect of my life as i didn't put in effort in my previous education. may approaching........................................................

8:26 PM

Sunday, April 17, 2011

yay!!! just finished watching star awards... the best improvement award goes to . . .. . PORNSAK!!!!!! WAHAHAHAH. i'm sooooooooo happie. =)

change is the only constant thing. how true is that. i feel that i'm a bitch. i shouldn't be feeling this way. but i can't help myself. its like i'm having no control over how i feel, how i speak and how i think. i hate myself. I'm not as strong as i thought i was.

23 years of social stigma, why do i only feel it now?? i thought i was confident enough, strong enough, secure enough.

partner? soul mate? fuck these thoughts.

9:42 PM

Saturday, April 09, 2011

APRIL STARTS . . .

got the 2nd result of my music exam... i know and understand my standard. i'm okay now.

got confirmation email for my uni course! finally something is going right for me. =)

2:19 PM

this scorpio has very split personality if anyone has realised. She likes super cute stuff e.g. hello kitty, pooh and a very good example, this blog skin. On the other hand, she hates to dress cutely. she uses vulgarities like occasionally but never uses it when parents are home ; loves dressing up when the occasion comes but hates the heels/dresses/skirts; loves making friends but hates socialising; plays the piano but prefers soft rock music in her mp3; loves the customer service envt but doesn't want it as her career; materialistic to a certain extent but hates the cliched designer brands; loves hanging out with friends but sometimes prefers and enjoys the solitude when alone; not really interested in finding a boyfriend but hoping to find a suitable and dependable husband; hates the cliched "wooing" but loves the sweetness in idol dramas; can get emotional at times but doesn't like too much attention and concern; can be superly active but is known to be the rain on people's parade; and the list could go on. if she doesn't talk to you, pls don't think she's unfriendly; she just doesn't want put on a pretence of knowing you well. All in all, hopefully you wouldn't hate her if you know her well enough. and if you hate her, hopefully its because you don't know her well enough.