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Monday, June 27, 2005

after a phase of time in life, we tend to ask ourself.. is this wad we wan?? then we would look back and see wad we have done.. and whether we have regreted it or not.. but izzit worth it to regret on wad has already been over?? i dun wanna regret.. neither does any of my frens.. but wad's done is already over.. this is wad life is and we have to live it... * dun regret wad you have done.. regret wad you have not done.. * and be in time to do that thing... to ting: dun sad le.. no point.. give him wad you can within your ability..

okie.. haiz... life has to go on.. kel's b-day coming le. !!! hahaz.. muz find time go buy her prezzzie.. at the same time meet up with min and yi... and all the others.. we are going out on that night... min ask me to plan.. dunno where to go.. maybe sweensens?? or maybe jacks place... or maybe even sakae buffuet.. !! hahaz.. * wOW ! * can't wait to see all of them again... :o) !! dunno wad stuff min will come up this time... still remember everytime our birthday min always give us dann jia lat de... this time dunoo wad will happen.. last time the chalet made me tell wei hao " wo bu neng mei you ni" hahaz... so pai seh loh... in the end her birthday winson and the gang revenged her.. hahaz... * i was there also * ...

+ dun wanna regret my decision. regret is the most painful feeling one can ever tolerate. hope you can understand +

1:52 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

this blog nothing about me.. all abt my bez fren.. ~ hahaz.. she getting married le ! * yeah * !! hahaz.. but hor .. she like not mentally prepared about this whole thing.. juz happened when she woke up one fine day in the morning and * pop !! * the message came and ... well.. you know the rest.. hahaz... like very happie hor... but hor.. she like dun wan to go stead leh... she dun wan treat me fish and co... how come she like that ah.. very bad hor... hahaz... kidding.. no lah.. seriously, it's up to her.. how she feels about him and will there be time, communication... she should know lah.. she is *experienced* .. yah.. ask her try loh,.. unlike me.. wanna go stead also nobody ask.. she got ppl ask she reject... (( when was life ever fair? )) k .. anyway, all the bez to her lah.. really.. hope she gets wad she wans... not bad lah.. with that gang... quite cool.. go stead le dun forget fren hor * ahem* ..

juz finish bio test and there are like 3 more tests coming up,... with one bloody hell presentation.. sux man.. life is getting more and more stressed.. then on the 29/7 is my ABRSM music exam loh... haiz... wanna aim for a merit.. merit good enough le.. get le muz ask my busy bez fren pei me go celebrate.. must book her first.. but the results will be out in like 3 months.. cuz muz send to england to mark and all the crap.. muz keep practising... bo pian...

+ i have suddenly lost faith in you. maybe it's juz a crush that fades off with time. it's not coming back no matter wad you do. the feeling's gone... like the wind in the air. i'm sorry +

10:09 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

getting used to my new life le ba.. all the stress and all the timetables.. why do i say new life? cuz maybe there is a new school with lots of places haven explore... then got a few more new frens.. and new types of crushes... haven met a lot of my old sch frens in my new school... (( fated not to return to my old life )) but the only bad thing is that always very tired de.. during lectures... always wanna sleep... maybe the timing is too early or used to waking up at 10 each morning... now every lesson starts at 8 then muz wake up like 6-6.30?? dann early hor.. hahaz... but like wad i said, have to get used to it.. it's part of my life... already got 3 projects in hand in the 3rd week of school... and all have to be handed in around the same time... nowadays no time to go down to IOI le.. cuz of the late releasing time of school... even if release early also have to rush to gym or go piano lesson... ting say i too much activities le... maybe it is true that i have too much activities but i prefer to squeeze all the time i have and live my life to the fullest... i'm doing all the things i want... i dun wanna regret at my last breath and say" i should have done that" like how i am regreting about some stuff now.. i've done my best.. we only go through life once... live it to the fullest...

1:12 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

after listening to that particularly song, your image suddenly appeared in my mind.. it juz floated in.. i didn't know i still liked you.. i know you have a stead already.. but i dun hate you or your stead .. i juz have a neutral feeling that life has to go on.. maybe i have finally understand the meanaing of " ru guo ni ai ta, jiu chen quan ta ".. i have already let you go.. not knowing whether you coming back or not.. i dunno why this is happening so suddenly.. it was okie juz a few days ago.. then it suddenly became so complicated.. dunno what is going on .. both mentally and emotionally.. when will the mental torture ever end?? it's killing me slowly.. how i wish it could speed up the reaction. saw him in the canteen in the last few days. fate ~ ? hahaz.. how i wish it was.. then met him again at IOI.. didn't really talk much also.. ting and me have been hinting for the past week.. or maybe even more.. asked them who they like, kept testing them on jeanie, asked them out for movie, asked them to each us riding.. still no use.. ting even smsed him telling him about taking the initiative and wad gals like.. still no use.. wad muz we do for you to get it? izzit so hard? haiz.. kkz.. dun wanna make myself complicated anymore.. things are already as complicated as it is.. wanna know who the torch in my heart shines to.. ~

m a y b e i t i s u p t o t i m e t o d e t e r m i n e w h o i s i n m y h e a r t a l l a l o n g . . . .

1:23 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

school is dann stress... got loads of projects coming up... dunno do wad plasticine de.. then got do wad report writing de.. practical also 3 hrs each week.. very tiring.. haiz.. muz catch up with the school work.. got new subs like bio, chem principal blah blah.. 3 times a week stuck at gym.. once a week at paino class.. then muz find time for sistas and frens.. wanted to work at back at IOI but boon peng say no job for me.. ting can work lah. but i cannot cuz of my shcool hols.. too short.. she 6 weeks then i 4 weeks... then new year wanted to work there .. also cannot.. hope that stock taking can participate.. no money also i dun mind.. ting also .... dunno if edwin will think of us not..
leow say that next month may have BBQ .. then dunno whether we wanna go not.. waiting for them to ask us de... duno whthere they will ask also.. later like chalet like tht... nobody ask.. then we also dun go... but muz see if we got not also.. think guo zhong know le lah.. we made it so obvious le... depends on whther they wanna take action or not... or they can act blur their whole life... up to them.. patience has a certain limit.. but love doesn't .... even if i have lost my patience , i think my love will still stay on..

11:16 AM

Monday, June 06, 2005

juz heard that he has a girlfriend..
ting say that i am feeling lost and dun know wad to do.. maybe ba.. but wad izzit that i feel?? i can't describe the feeling actually... really.. all i hope is that it is not sad or jealous ba... if i am feeling jealous that means i still like him.. then wad about the other him?? haiz... am i always caught between 2 guys??... one smokes and the other doesn't... can't say that i dun like him cuz he smokes but it's the fact that he smokes... haiz..
haven seen him in school for the past week.. that means no fate? haven seen him in IOI also.. maybe cuz he got stead le ba.. that's why busier...
didn't had a chance to confront him cuz everytime see him always kenna di xiao..so he blush, then i zhao.. so.. not much chance.. maybe i am really not fated to have love in my life.. can't change fate.. cuz i dunno my fate until i miss another relationship... really wanna shake your hand and tell you " wish you and her all the bez " .. maybe ths is the way to handle a broken heart.

all the bez in your relationship ~

1:04 PM