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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

found that i didn't really talked much about wad is happening in my life.. have been talking abt my thoughts, my thoughts and my thoughts.. so wanna update on the events that are happening.. think i did mention abt the hols i having now.. today, chen feng, yun har and jia xin coming to my house to do CPPB pratical.. got 2 pracs in hand.. hope can finish in time.. juz came back from class chalet 2 days ago.. wow ~ didn't expect me to tahan for the whole night and morning still can go see sunrise.. when everybody was asleep, me, yong xiang, xi xun and jia xin were playing taiti.. play until morning 5'o clock.. before that, we watched a dann freaking lame show.. hahaz.. we all laugh until can hear from the next room.. frankly, i kinda had some discoveries from the chalet.. first.. chee wee actually did stay overnight.. thought he was those kind that can't stay de.. then wen jie.. hahaz.. he talk dann xia lan de... play taiti with him hor.. comment non-stop de. me and xin yu kept laughing.. then when we come back from sunrise, wen jie called us to play again.. so can say practically play about 50 rounds of taiti.. hahaz.. fun sia..
talking about chalet.. juz realised i didn't write about leow's chalet.. the one where ting, me and the other guys went.. kinda forget the date but still remembered the * details * ^^ hahaz.. the one was rather fun.. esp ws.. kept di xiao-ing ppl like kk and jeannie.. hahaz.. me and ting laugh till can't take it le.. esp the handphone part.. at night didn't play taiti like class chalet.. walked to another part of the chalet to fish.. somemore that place dun have llike chair or stools to sit loh.. at there nothing to do, my eyes kept closing.. so had to walk around to refrain from faling asleep.. they all caught puffer fish loh.. so in the end had to let it back into the river.. went back empty-handed.. then go back to the chalet they play few rounds of taiti then sleep liao.. the next day was BBQ .. leow was the one doing all the work (( wahahaha)) cuz everybody dann tired mah.. then bo pian.. me and ting went swenseens in the afternoon so dann full.. didn't eat much at the BBQ.. at the later part went into the chalet to talk (( or rather gossip )) .. leow came in and give advice leh.. hahaz.. was surprised to learn stuff like wad his gf does.. yah.. we left the earliest... at around 8.30 like that.. then went home and SLEEP !! ~
well, that's all for both the chalet i've been recently.. not very detailed cuz *somethings* cannot be said so oPEnly.. ^^

8:39 AM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

everyhing's happening so fast.. and it's becoming more complicated than i expected.. wad in the world is happening?? how can this be happening? it can't be.. really.. wad has she done to deserve this?? and she's lying there.. helpless.. and we can't even do anything to help .. haiz.. who said the good will be blessed?? seems like nothing in the world is worth our trust anymore.. even bez of frens can't be trusted?? wad is the world coming to?! haiz ...

test is finally over.. and the term break has come.. it's one week of freedom and 7 weeks of hell.. haiz.. who said poly was easy? it's all about time-managament and your ability to cope with stress.. the survivor wins.. presentations and reports are killing me... still have to cope with tutorials and all the other revisions.. haiz.. and it's only the first year...

now, i dun even bother who you like... you can get caught in the heart shape as long as you wan.. nobody will help you out cuz you dun give them your hand to pull you out.. you asked for it.. and you're not gonna blame anyone.. life has to go on for me even if i know you like her.. and time is not gonna wait for me.. the sun will continue to rise, the sun will continue to set... the stars and the moon will continue to shine, and the flowers will continue to bloom.. who will stop for you if you dun help yourself? now i learn the ways of life by the hard way.. nobody taught me.. i learned it the very hard way..

12:44 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

at last i told her the real reason why i can't feel comfortable when she is with him.. that's like one load off my mind.. and i'm glad she understood.. yah.... anyway, chalet was like totaly awesome.. it was like my once in a life-time chance to talk to them 24 hrs.. and it finally came true.. esp ws and kk... hahaz... but.. life is never fair.. once you have something, life will take something away from you.. wad did life take away from me?? hmmm.... life realised my dream but dashed my hopes... can confirm that he likes her le... well.. actually, that was a known fact since the day she came.. but now is like.. confirm loh.. then everybody is like talking about it... haiz.. wad to do?? it hurts to see you in this situation... but wad can i do? you are already as complicated as it is.. and if i were to help you get out, 3 of us would be stuck in this small heart shape... it's so small.. i dun even think it can accomadate 2 ppl... let alone 3.. yah... so... but i can only hope you find your way out without getitng hurt.. you know yourself wawd kind of situation you are in.. and i dun think you need any more reminders... you are also getting sick of everybody telling you this and that... but all are for your own good... hope you can see the light out soon... and safe..

11:48 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

suddenly... i feel so lost and lonely.. why?? i wish i knew.. it was my decision to ask them to go stead.. then when they go stead le, i am the one feeling so defeated... yah.. defeated is the right word... i dun blame them... this is their happiness... why should i cuz of my selfishness deprive them of their happiness?? they fought for it themselves... they should enjoy their fruits of their own labour... haiz... found that i was a bitch.. i didn't contact min and yi for so long... until i felt defeated then go find them... how could i ever forgive myself?? life has been an uphill for me.. the real test is here already.. who are my true frens?? who are the ones that i trust ?? who are the ones who will be there for me when i need them?? maybe i have been avoiding... but if you were me, how will you feel?? it has been so long since the last relationship and now.. so suddenly... another one comes about... it's so short.. faster than a streak of lightning... and i am not both emotionally and menatally prepared... but it wasn't like this with min... fer, and kel.. i can't help but avoid.. my feelings are beyond my control.. hope everybody can understand.. the world is so small... but how come i can't find my way out? everything is crammed inside my world.. it can't get out.. like that heat trapped in the surrounding of carbon dioxide... can't get out.. and the world is gonna collasped with all the heat in it.. when will my world collaspe??? sonner or late... it's juz a matter of time..

+ why are there not enough words in the english dictionary to describe how i feel?? +

1:20 PM