lynettelimyuyingsblog

Saturday, July 30, 2011

a new phase of my life has started.. its me studying in uni! hahaz. this was what i had been waiting for. Started my first 2 lessons on mon and tues.. first lesson was at SP and then at Unisim. I chose the modules similar to bao but we didn't manage to get the same classroom. When we knew that, both of us were very insecure... like, wad the fuck am i going to do without you?! hahahahaz. but we survived.... the first 2 lessons. hahaha.

Intro to social sciences was quite a general module.. has a lot of memorising to do.. the lecturer (or facilitator, as what he calls himself) is a malay. He's a historian. Super cool... he tried to engage the classroom, but apparently, you can't engage a class filled with SINGAPOREANS. FAILED. 2nd class is The Social Self where you learn a lot of self thoughts. like, self awareness, self focusing, self efficacy blah blah blah... Its wad i like, but i thought the hours were too long. Either that, or working in the morning is tiring me. hahaz. i mean i could listen and stuff, but.. just somehow my glances found themselves at the clock and mind wandering to when lesson will end.

Pace is super fast... they're like speeding through everything.. I know its Uni and what not, but i didn't realised it would be that bad. Even when I read the notes before coming to lesson, i still found myself lost at some parts, then needing to take mental notes to look it up after classes (which also means in office). So assignments are due 2 weeks from now.. which is like.. NEXT WEEK! its one essay for each module, so which means 2 essays.. 1200 words.. i dunno if its a problem for me.. I guess its the content that matters a lot.. for an example now i'm already writing 300 odd of words. so i would need 4 times this amount. ......... i haven't started on anything yet. cuz i know my mind would be blank if i didn't have enough information to start on. and the worst thing you would want is to stare at the computer, with nothing to continue. SO i'm chiong-ing all the notes gathered from internet, trying to summarise them in my own words, then after reading the notes , then i'll pen down the structure of my essay. Only after that will I start typing out my essay. cuz i'm really afraid once i get stuck, i can't continue. then i'll type crap..

ok, social life. Ann planned a k box session and there was me, weng and yh plus himself. pretty fun session, given the fact that i've not sang with yh in AGES. hahahaz. pity she left early, if not i could have heard her sing more songs. after the k session in which i felt we got bluffed by the management of kbox, was dinner. we headed down to cinnie for dinner and crapped as usual. I felt rather weird sandwiched between 2 emo guys. hahahahaz. they don't usually reveal that side to me, so i was in a rather sensitive position, as to whether i should be a friend, or be a counselor . although i know i have no right to be one. hahaahahah.. sometimes things like that makes me ponder.... who suffers the most from a relationship? a girl or a guy? my stand has always been a girl suffers more, although there are rare cases (like my 2 friends there) suffers more. Cuz its true that girls are the more emotional ones and guys usually won't get more impact. but then again, this is a case by case thingy.. so .... my stand now is invalid. hahahz.

oh well...... i still believe in things that are not seen, not explained cuz thats the only way you are able to deceive yourself. fate, horoscope, destiny and what not.

9:41 PM

this scorpio has very split personality if anyone has realised. She likes super cute stuff e.g. hello kitty, pooh and a very good example, this blog skin. On the other hand, she hates to dress cutely. she uses vulgarities like occasionally but never uses it when parents are home ; loves dressing up when the occasion comes but hates the heels/dresses/skirts; loves making friends but hates socialising; plays the piano but prefers soft rock music in her mp3; loves the customer service envt but doesn't want it as her career; materialistic to a certain extent but hates the cliched designer brands; loves hanging out with friends but sometimes prefers and enjoys the solitude when alone; not really interested in finding a boyfriend but hoping to find a suitable and dependable husband; hates the cliched "wooing" but loves the sweetness in idol dramas; can get emotional at times but doesn't like too much attention and concern; can be superly active but is known to be the rain on people's parade; and the list could go on. if she doesn't talk to you, pls don't think she's unfriendly; she just doesn't want put on a pretence of knowing you well. All in all, hopefully you wouldn't hate her if you know her well enough. and if you hate her, hopefully its because you don't know her well enough.