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Sunday, April 17, 2011

yay!!! just finished watching star awards... the best improvement award goes to . . .. . PORNSAK!!!!!! WAHAHAHAH. i'm sooooooooo happie. =)

change is the only constant thing. how true is that. i feel that i'm a bitch. i shouldn't be feeling this way. but i can't help myself. its like i'm having no control over how i feel, how i speak and how i think. i hate myself. I'm not as strong as i thought i was.

23 years of social stigma, why do i only feel it now?? i thought i was confident enough, strong enough, secure enough.

partner? soul mate? fuck these thoughts.

9:42 PM

this scorpio has very split personality if anyone has realised. She likes super cute stuff e.g. hello kitty, pooh and a very good example, this blog skin. On the other hand, she hates to dress cutely. she uses vulgarities like occasionally but never uses it when parents are home ; loves dressing up when the occasion comes but hates the heels/dresses/skirts; loves making friends but hates socialising; plays the piano but prefers soft rock music in her mp3; loves the customer service envt but doesn't want it as her career; materialistic to a certain extent but hates the cliched designer brands; loves hanging out with friends but sometimes prefers and enjoys the solitude when alone; not really interested in finding a boyfriend but hoping to find a suitable and dependable husband; hates the cliched "wooing" but loves the sweetness in idol dramas; can get emotional at times but doesn't like too much attention and concern; can be superly active but is known to be the rain on people's parade; and the list could go on. if she doesn't talk to you, pls don't think she's unfriendly; she just doesn't want put on a pretence of knowing you well. All in all, hopefully you wouldn't hate her if you know her well enough. and if you hate her, hopefully its because you don't know her well enough.