Tuesday, February 09, 2010
i just emailed KKH to tell them i'm not going for the interview. zzzzz.. waste ppl's time. think i should really think before i act. my brain like made of tofu like that. zzz..... anyway, today mr lau invited a guest speaker. her name is karen ho. her title is account's specialist in one of the biggest pharmaceutical company working. her body is like WOW- hot and she has this air of confidence surrounding her. she just got married 2 weeks ago to her pilot-boyfriend. once she talk and you'll know that she's not just some superficial bimbo without substance. she knows her stuff damn well, and she talks like rosemary. although i think rosemary is stronger than her. hee hee.. and i'm reluctantly admitting it, i'm jealous. she has all the things that i want but don't have, and therefore putting it simply, i'm jealous. of course, this is the good kind of jealousy not that kind of i hate her and therefore want to split her perfect body into 99 pieces kind. yes i know, under any perfect suface, there are multiple cracks hidden beneath. but still, the surface that i see, is something which i want. call me materialistic or call me superficial, i'm still yearning for my first big thing in life. wad's the atmosphere like outside? cny starting, holidays, good food waiting to be eaten, ang baos waiting to be collected. adv dip ppl? quizzes waiting to be studied, presentations waiting to be prepared, exams welcoming us with open arms. wad the hell. hahahahahz. k lah. raymond's part is the worst test. so now, i'm just waiting to chiong my report and presentation. tml! i will do it. hopefully. hahahaz.. jerry yan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god. how handsome is he. i'm just waiting for next stop happines to be over! this sunday is the last episode. then i'm going to watch liar game 2. the movie will be out in march. but! singapore always very wad one. nv show. last time bleach de movie also nv show. zzzzzz.... this time how. my akiyama!! after liar game, then i will watch my ella and jerry. =)old pain doesn't completely die. Time may soothe it, stroke over it until it looks like it has healed but it never dies properly. It stays with you, it lives in the crack of your soul, waiting for moments when you feel true pain. Other people had hurt me several times over the years. I'd cried, I'd ached, I'd grieved with varying degree of intensity. And i'd always known, after what had happened when i tried to tell him i loved him, that it only hurt enough to leave a scar when the person mattered. When the person had managed to open uo a path to the center of your being. Few people had managed that. I never realised that the next person who would cause me as much pain as he had all those years ago, who would cause all that old pain to resurface with just a few words, would be, him.
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