hey guys. i'm apologising for the depressed post. i would like to expalain the situation i had just a week ago.

i can't take my grade 8 exam this year. beacuse i stupidly didn't register for it. i was supposed to take my grade 8 exam last yr but i wasn't prepared enough so i faked an mc to take it this yr. after getting the re-entry voucher, i quit my music school and resumed lessons in april. the registration is end of march but i didn't know and my teacher didn't tell me. so each assumed that each other have already registered for each other and no one said anything. untill i was wondering how come i haven received my exam slip then i realised that i didn't register. sigh. bottom line. i threw time and money into the pacific ocean. 2 yrs of practising, 2 yrs of course fees. boo.

then i went to plead with abrsm to see if they could squeeze me a slot. and i met that fucking bitch. i also dunno where i offend her. she came in and she say "be careful what you wish for". then i was like wtf. then i ask her if she can do anything about my situation then she say "then is there a point of a validity date? if everyone can come in and say they forget then we extend for them, then wads the point of having a validity date? " aigoo... that bitch. then she also said something about "instead of pleading here, why don't you go and buy the new grade 8 pieces and start practicing now so that you can take the exam next year?" .... wah! fucking bitch. i was already begging her. i had to swallow her bloody remarks at me . if i wasn't at such a desprate state, i would have slapped till her face got swollen, grouge her eyes out and break her fucking neck. wah kao. i dun wan to cry but her remarks made me break down outside victoria concert hall. argh!

ok. so now i'm going to take the exam next yr. but my teacher wants me to take atcl trinity. think we're going to quarrel over it this friday. sigh sigh..... i feel that i'm so stupid. why did i even forget to register? i haven even tell my mum. my bro and my dad. my bro's going to haunt me for life on this.

i got on my weekend by chiong-ing dramas. i already watched 20 episodes of my show. i couldn't sleep and eat or do anything. ok. i'll update you guys on my decision.