Wednesday, November 05, 2008
wah filzan.. win liao loh.. change job liao nv update me. you no more at whitesands?? meet me! i've got loadz of stuff to tell you!!! hahaz... and that idiot also. =) .. i'm also busy at this point of time, maybe when my hols start? early dec to mid dec. aight? =) ok thanx xin yu. i shall try 95.4. hahaz.. =)kelong trip is confirmed!! *wheeeeeeee* ~ i dunno wad to expect though. i juz know we are supposed to meet 9.30am at changi jetty and the ferry will bring us over. supposedly there will mahjong, karoake, seafood, barbecue blah blah blah.. anyway, good or not, its juz a short trip as well as a good escape. going with my dearest sisters, mummy and my aunt and my cousin. i think we are the biggest group. hahaz. a total of 7. there's no 'stuff-to-bring list' wadsoeva, so i think wi will juz stuff some clothes and necessary items inside. most importnat, poker cards or something. i'm wondering i should bring any alcohol there.. but i dun think so. i dun wanna get drunk then fall into the waters or something. hahaz.. i was thinking of brining speakers to blast music but i'm thinking if they have powerpoints there. doubt they have. so we shall make do with 'live' singing. hahahaz... i'm hooked on rubik's cube. hahaz.. i juz have to do it everytime before i sleep or rather, i alwasy do until i dun wan sleep. i know the internet or wadeva youtube got teach you how to do, but i juz dun wan to do without understanding. now i'm at the 2nd layer. jia you!! ytd when i reach home mummy was watching 'jiao dian'.. i'm not sure wad the eng name for the show is. its some reality show lah. this lady is diagnose with cancer and it has reached the stage where the cancer cells have already attacked the bone marrow and the brain... which means, no cure. she will die anytime. the thing is, she has 2 kids and a very loving husband. her birthday is round the corner somemore. i remembered her husband saying, " i really wanna plan something for shin((the lady's name)) but yet i dun wanna plan too much as she may not get to participate in it. christmas is also round the corner and all i want is to spend the last christmas with my family. "..... the lady is a korean but she stays in america. her husband is an american. her hair is now all shaved off and she is very very skinny. the family now stays in singapore. now the part that moved me to tears is when she said this " i dun blame life or god or anyone for me having cancer. i know i'm going to die anytime and everyday is a surprise for me. but i worry about when i die, wad will happen to tony ((husband)) and the kids? wad will tony say when they kids ask 'where is mummy'? my dad has heart problems and i really dunno how he will take it. its juz these questions that make me sad. but other than that, i dun feel sad at all. " her best fren in asutralia flew to singapore juz to spend time with her... she takes care of her all the time, her husband is there for her and she gets to see her kids grow up for the last part of her life. i think ppl who are diagonse with terminal disease are the bravest ppl of all.. they can face death in a way which most normal ppl like us can't. they dun run away when faced with a problem, they dun hide like the orstrich, they juz face it. they have to learn to face it and accept the problem themselves cuz no one can help them even if they wanted. talking about it helps you to accept the reality of the problem. speaking about it to someone never means you are seeking sympathy. speaking about it to someone helps yourself to see where you are and wad your'e gonna do about it. to those who are facing a battle of your own, dun worry, you are never alone. the same uniform, the same scene ; deja vuhappie belated birthday8 yrs and counting
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