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Thursday, June 21, 2007

wed was mich's day! yay..... freaked out last minute cuz haven decided wad to wear.. then in the end choose something which looks sooooo soooooo auntie. hahaz.. wad to do? dun have anything to wear. reached ROMM at like 9.15. thought we were late, but we were juz on time.. heng ah. then went up to the waiting area to get ready for the ceremony. took loadz of pics there.. then waited a while more to go into the room. wah.. first time go in like very scary sia. everything is so quiet. then we stood there at watched the priest or some person with high ranking to conduct the solmenization. then after that, went to the groom's house for lunch.. wah.. he has 13 siblings sia.. hahaz.. i also wan.. but hahaz.. no lah.. 3 to 5 can liao.. wahahahahahah!!!

then at night... went clubbing! hahaz.. went to st james for the 5 free drinks.. this time i drank tequila pop, tequila shot( the salt sux), urban coke, vodka sprite and sprite. hahaz.. this time i high. my head was THROBBING lah.. when i mildly high rite, i know i will kbkb a lot.. but when i seriously high ah, when my head is throbbing like shit, i will at there keep quiet, trying to control my actions and stuff. so that night, i was seriously high so i at there keep quiet. after that took cab to clinic cuz i wanted to go very long ago liao. deposited my bag there, then go get the chop for MOS. then went back to clinic again. it wasn't wad i expected lah. i wanted to go to that one where a lot of hospital equipments one. but the one muz pay money. the free entry one damn small lah.. the 2nd level wasn't open yet so we went back to MOS to sit down. went there and saw ling na. then went upstairs find seats. min and madeline drank again. but me and bao cannot liao. after the drinks, then go down to dance floor. fun sia. the songs are GOOD. hahaz.. i heard umbrella.. then akon songs.. ... eh.. thats all i know lah. but the groove to all the music is soooo fun to dance. hahahaz... after dancing, my head no more throbbing liao.. much much better. its around 1 plus when i left for home. min and bao still at there but me and madeline went home first.

hooked on english songs. i everyday have to listen to the songs i took from my frens. hahaz.. its wad yun har call the "jay-therapy".. mine is "english RnB - therapy".. songs like unfaithful, real love, umbrella, deja vu, step up, till the dawn, irreplaceable, grace kelly....... and my most most fav fav song... LAST NIGHT! hahaz.. that is my new message ring tone on my sony phone. ppl pls msg me when i using that phone. hahahaz....

yi mei: thanx for the prezzies. i wont forget you when i go other country ok? hahaz.. (",)

dun forget the number one rule when you dine outside: dun fuck around with the ppl who messes with your food.

9:50 PM

Monday, June 18, 2007

2nd week of hols juz started. busy working again. have been working fri to tue consecutively.. my legs are like breaking lah.. but hope this month's pay will soar. pls. let it soar... hahaz..

anyway, juz to share a little experience that i had. after some incident, i went to the temple to pray for myself. pray that everything from now on will go smoothly and stuff lah.. so wad happen was the day i dread most for work came. it was sat lah.. i damn scared of sat de cuz of the bloody crowd. the time came when we had to draw lots to see who gets wad station. so normally those who can do bar draws last. but surprise surprise malik didn't let me draw for bar. hahaz... i was soooo relief. then we 3 gals draw lots for our own stations lah. surprise surprise again. i got HOST! my fav... ok.. then we went to our respective stations... was at my host station when malik came with meera. he showed meera the standard way of hosting ppl in and the ways to block ppl who walk in like nobody's business.. so after teaching, he came to me and say, "ying, you exchange stations with meera for an hour can? you at host season already. let her learn''. so happens that my friend meera is stationed at alfresco.. so we exchanged stations.. then all of a sudden, it rained like bloody heavy lah. then outside is damn damn humid. so everybody who wants to dine in, all go in. nobody at alfresco. inside was like FULL HOUSE and outside only got 2 tables occupied. wah.. never in my life i so slack on a sat night.
morale of the story: guan yin answers your prayers. my work that day was like REALLY smooth....

wed is mich's big day. wad am i gonna wear? sian.. this kind of functions for me really muz like plan wad to wear.. cuz everything i have is limited. hahaz.. everybody asking me to wear that mphsis dress. but like if every occassion wear that like very not special liao. hahaz.. that is my most most most most special dress. hahaz.. ((min, honoured mah? wore that on your b-day leh..))..

some songs that remind me of my work budds.
real love by massari - syawal
step up soundtrack and don't matter by akon - malik
grace kelly by mika and high school never ends by bowling for soup - shaiful
this ain't a scene by fall out boys - khalid
till the dawn by drew sidora and keep your hands off my gal by good charlotte and swee escape by gwen stefani - riez
dunno why also. but juz think of them whenever this song is played. hahaz..

Succeeding... come on gal. you can do it. juz bloody ignore everythings that going on. dun make their problem your problem.

11:35 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

DELPH! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!
hahaz.. nobody forget you lah.. why say until like that.. hahaz..

wadeva doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
i hope i will.

6:34 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

its the hols! have been spending money like i own some money tree or some money printing machine. hahaz.. went out on monday to thursday consecutively. met up with working buds most of the times. hahaz.. muz spend more time with them. will not get to spend time with them already. haiz...

its fathers day this sun. well.. hope everything goes well then. i will be working that day lah. so anything happens, i won't know also. like the other time.

he's leaving soon.. going back. sad. didn't go to HFCC on fri. he's not working this weekend too. (i think) ... yup.. that leaves nothing for me..

anyway.. gym.. when you coming back from japan? got buy hello kitty for me mah? hahaz... wanna do FYP liao........... faster contact me ah...

its time to get real girl. time to get out of all this nonsense day dreaming. time to look at wad is before you not wad you want things to be.
"when you fall out of love, you loose a person you really love. but the other party looses a gal who truly loves him"
dun think abt it.

2:00 PM

Friday, June 08, 2007

i wanna change bag!!!!!! argh! stupid deng-deng... take wrong bag and dun even know some more! wah lao!! there is this guy who forwarded some of his modules who happens to be in my class. and guess wad? he has the same bag as me. e-x-a-c-t-l-y the same. he doesn't know lah.. only i know.. then everytime he come into class, i will hide my bag under my desk. hahaz.. so PQM test that day., all bags supposed to put in front mah.. then when i was doing my test, i jokingly tell myself that later muz check whether take correct bag not. ka ni na, sway sway when i go and take my bag that time, the place that i originally placed my bag is like empty. i looked left and saw my bag's twin. dun even need to open up and see if that's my bag not cuz one look i know liao. firstly my hello kitty and elephant is not hanging. secondly, the bag quite new lah.. cuz mine old mah.. then i panic liao.. i turn back and saw li hong. i quickly say to her" li hong! ming wei na wo de bag! ming wei na wo de bag!"... then she was like... "MING WEI! MING WEI! NI NA CUO BAG!" shouting from the room to the lift there. hahaz.. then everyone was like looking at the comotion. when i look out of the classroom, i specifically saw KIMBERRY and GOH YI MI and NICOLI laughing so hard lah. wad the hell... then when ming wei turned ard, (this is from kim lah) the hello kitty was hanging from my bag and it made him look so stupid.. ! hahaz.. then he commented (this is from gym), "the bag same and the weight also the same"...! hahaz.. argh.. sooooo pai seh..

hols time!

thanx for all of your concern...

10:08 PM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

it takes juz one night to destroy the peacefulness i had for 19 years. wad did i do to deserve all these fucking shit? whose fault izzit? i have no answers to all these bombarding question in my head. juz one night and everything i have are like gone. work and home. both dun give me a sense of security anymore. both are like empty shells where i juz go and stay and leave, for the sake of a roof over my head, for routine's sake. wad the hell. i'm sick of it. someone pls return my daddy. he's being replaced by a mad dog who only bites and bark at any fucking thing. can't even study for a simple 15 MCQ test. have to be bothered and interrupted by that mad dog.

work. suddenly everyone i trust and love so much are like daggers. killing each other .... why? why must everything i trust and have so much confidence in and live for fall out juz one day after another? making me feel so lost. really lost. no sense of security at all.. shit. how did i end up like that? wad the hell did i do to end up like that?

can't talk about work at home and can't talk about home at work. now the only place i feel safe is at school where all my frens are. but how long is it gonna go on for? the only support i have is my frens. but most of my buds are attached therefore cannot also intrude them. haiz....... i've lost support from guys. daddy replaced by a mad dog. kor in camp 90% of the time. given the recent saga, doubt he will be coming home. who else? malik is also disturbed by his recent saga. khalid? filzan? riez? seems like everyone i can confine in are from my work place, but how often do i see them? during work also can't talk much. damn... failure.

have to be strong for mummy. mummy is being strong for me. when is this fucking shit gonna end? hate myself. hate my whole fucking life. hate everything.

divorce? i'm all for it. i'm even prepared.

fuck off

12:04 PM

Friday, June 01, 2007

wed to sun will pass in a blink of an eye for me. why? cuz i would be freaking busy and packed. from wed: go to tekong juz to pon gems presentation. dunno whether can present again another day not. went to tekong for the whole afternoon. that time went with kor le but this time a little more in depth. more things to see, more place to go and more shuai ge to see... hee hee.. after thhe tekong nonsense, the bus brought us to expo mrt. reach lavender at 5.45. reach home at 6. change clothes, take out books and put clothes in plus minus take me 15 mins. nv even sit down, walk back to lavender again then go pasir ris. met up with filzan, adri and aunt barbara at pasir ris control to go to syawal's chalet. wah.. chlalet fun sia. gossiped! hahaz.. went to the dunno wad mangrove swamp.. diao.. so dark lah.. somemore they all talking ghost stories lah.. luckily they talking in malay so i dun really understand the whole story. hee.. then nv sleep the whole night. left the chalet at 7 in the morning. reached home at 8 .. immediately bathe and KO. slept till 1 for lunch. then study the test. wah.. sian lah .. cannot understand anything also. the range soooo big. haiz.
fri was another busy day. school finish at 4. i have to wait till 6 for the FnH debriefing. then 8.30 start work. so many stupid breeaks in between.. go home also cannot, stay in school very sian. so in the end stayed in school and play neopets. hahaz.. me jia xin and yun har cong chu jiang hu. hee. then went for the debriefing. sian .. only me from clarke quay. i asked a few ppl from my team. all dun wan to go leh. even nicole and bernard and boss didn't want to go. thenn how? i go on my own lOh.. is supposed to be the whole team go de. like fucked up lah. only one person when the other teams all attandence full. i didn't ask to be the IC too. why do i have to do all this? work was fun as usual. hee.. it always brightens up my day.. even though its at night.
think this would be the last few days i would be working with him. he would be leaving soon. filzan arranged an outing . should i go?
anyway.. sat was supposed to be spent at JB. but.... daddy saw my face. totally shagged. hahaz.. then in the end they didn't go. sad...... wanna shop for more accessories and stuff. anyway.. will have work at 6.30 later.. till 1.30.. hahaz.. look forward.

i dun wanna think about wad i know, wad i can see and wad is around me. i dun wanna spoil this perfect memory that i have about you and them. let it remain as it is .. can? knowing too much is not good. yah.. i am the kind that always act like a small gal. liking hello kitty, liking winnie the pooh, liking all these cute cute stuff. yes.. i do like them in fact. but. i do all this most of the time cuz i wanna act blur about wad i know. but there's a certain level that i can act blur till.. i know.. i can see a lot of things going on... enough of acting blur already.

"those are the whales singing, can you hear them?"
" yes.. but i thought it was juz me, crying on the inside"

4:36 PM