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Monday, June 13, 2005

after listening to that particularly song, your image suddenly appeared in my mind.. it juz floated in.. i didn't know i still liked you.. i know you have a stead already.. but i dun hate you or your stead .. i juz have a neutral feeling that life has to go on.. maybe i have finally understand the meanaing of " ru guo ni ai ta, jiu chen quan ta ".. i have already let you go.. not knowing whether you coming back or not.. i dunno why this is happening so suddenly.. it was okie juz a few days ago.. then it suddenly became so complicated.. dunno what is going on .. both mentally and emotionally.. when will the mental torture ever end?? it's killing me slowly.. how i wish it could speed up the reaction. saw him in the canteen in the last few days. fate ~ ? hahaz.. how i wish it was.. then met him again at IOI.. didn't really talk much also.. ting and me have been hinting for the past week.. or maybe even more.. asked them who they like, kept testing them on jeanie, asked them out for movie, asked them to each us riding.. still no use.. ting even smsed him telling him about taking the initiative and wad gals like.. still no use.. wad muz we do for you to get it? izzit so hard? haiz.. kkz.. dun wanna make myself complicated anymore.. things are already as complicated as it is.. wanna know who the torch in my heart shines to.. ~

m a y b e i t i s u p t o t i m e t o d e t e r m i n e w h o i s i n m y h e a r t a l l a l o n g . . . .

1:23 PM

this scorpio has very split personality if anyone has realised. She likes super cute stuff e.g. hello kitty, pooh and a very good example, this blog skin. On the other hand, she hates to dress cutely. she uses vulgarities like occasionally but never uses it when parents are home ; loves dressing up when the occasion comes but hates the heels/dresses/skirts; loves making friends but hates socialising; plays the piano but prefers soft rock music in her mp3; loves the customer service envt but doesn't want it as her career; materialistic to a certain extent but hates the cliched designer brands; loves hanging out with friends but sometimes prefers and enjoys the solitude when alone; not really interested in finding a boyfriend but hoping to find a suitable and dependable husband; hates the cliched "wooing" but loves the sweetness in idol dramas; can get emotional at times but doesn't like too much attention and concern; can be superly active but is known to be the rain on people's parade; and the list could go on. if she doesn't talk to you, pls don't think she's unfriendly; she just doesn't want put on a pretence of knowing you well. All in all, hopefully you wouldn't hate her if you know her well enough. and if you hate her, hopefully its because you don't know her well enough.